Praise the Lord Saints for
another day. Thinking a little differently today…All is well. I am aware that the thought has crossed your
mind for those who have followed me—is she for real? I decided to share this,
so here is my story. Think for a moment…have you searched everywhere you could
think of to find something? You checked and double checked—it is nowhere to be
found. It is bothering you because you know you have it somewhere in a safe
place. So safe you cannot find
it—Lol. But in the mist you find
something you did not expect and maybe thought was long gone. You are now
thinking how, when, why is this here.
I was looking for a photograph
for the past two weeks and found something by surprise. The photograph seemed important enough to
keep searching for off and on over the two week period. It really concerned me because I usually do
not loose things in my own house for long—Lol. Okay, when we move or decide to
do spring cleaning we get rid of old, broken, unused or things you no longer
want. Seems reasonable, yes. I did not
realize some years ago this item traveled with me. It was mixed in with a few
old things I decided to hold and revisit later to discard. I tossed out a huge about of stuff and things
mainly because I was believing in a fresh start. I just thought this and that needed to go
because I was getting ready to expect better. This one item was from a past
experience that had some controversy and heartache that literally had me
feeling like Paul with a thorn in my side. The harder I tried to move on, I
accepted my part in the mess, never bitter but I could not shake this off. It
seemed as if it was a gloomy cloud that would follow me like Pig-Pin from the
Peanuts. To my friend, (email me your question Felicia) you are not alone, I felt that way too. I have said this before, I am not being funny. A couple years following this mess of a situation I felt that I
would not step out of the shadow of these bad moments. Yes, I call them “bad
moments” because thank God they did not become permanent and take me out of the
race.
There was a time that seeing
things from that period would give me sorrow and pain all over again. I knew I
bruised the heart of God and that hurts deeply. I took my eyes off God and what
he promised. I allowed myself to be fooled. We sometimes put everything on God
but we know what he said. No excuses it appeared to be okay, because God would
not let this happen or send me this. Neither you nor I can change the past or
remain in it, but grow from it. I thank
God for his grace and mercy. Think about it—God does things with excellence,
love and at the appointed time for all involved. Often God allows your blessing to meet you
without all the details and often where you least expect it. I have waited too for my blessings and many
have come where I did not expect. That is what’s so awesome about God, he never
fails but you must stay aligned with Him.
Regardless, your focus is not on how, where, who or when. Your focus is on the one who blesses and He
will do you well—pray for your heart’s desire but know it may not come from
where you think or what you thought it would look like.
It is all in the past because God
forgave me and I forgave myself. I tossed the item in the trash with no regrets
or issue, I really did not think twice. I can honestly say I have moved on because I can
talk about, see things from that period without pause and no one can hurt or
hold me in bondage over it. Clean house
my friend or clean up your mindset. Leave
old mistakes and regrets in the past.
Life gives us lessons to learn. But understand how wonderful is Grace
when we error. Give God your heart completely and move on. Just so you know I
still have not found the photograph.
There was a reason I did not. I still
wait for the some blessings to cross paths with me, all is well in the wait. May
God continue to bless you mightily as you refocus, trust God and be open to the
blessing when it knocks at your door or however God sees fit to do it. #StayFocusedAndBeBlessed
Read: James 1:7, Numbers 6:24-26, Ephesians 3:20, Psalm 37:4